Ah well today was alright I suppose.  I decided to write in this again cause some little girl said I should or get it out of my profile, but anyways.  I haven't been going to sleep early at all since last friday, 12:30 was my earliest and that was last night.  So naturally I'm dead tired, to the point where my eyes are actually burning when I blink or leave them closed for -x- amount of time.

     This morning though when I got to school I was worried about Jesse Shreckengost cause he was going through a very risky operation for his status.  But word was from Miss Hobaugh that he made it, but was in critical condition, BUT Justin Mohney said about his dad or someone had the same operation and was in critical condition, so way to go Jesse heh, knew you could do it, so did Chris ! and I'm sure a lot of other people.  Men like Jesse make me thankful for who I am and how fortunate I am to have what I have.  I know I'm not the smartest, but I've come to the conclusion that I'm going to have fun with the time I have left because if I lose it then my life will no longer be fun, so sorry to anyone who thinks I don't care about them anymore.

     I lost my calculator, still haven't found it, and my parents are going to kill me if they find out, so I'll probably have to pay for another one which I do not want to do because I want a new bowling ball! Which reminds me that I'm nervous for the Key Club bowl-a-thon turn out on Thursday, I hope people come! So you should come! Thursday the 24th at 10pm-1 am at King Lanes!

     I am on the Tennis team now! I love the sport, it's totally different then I've ever played before.  I like it because it's basically independant, unless doubles, but it's fun nonetheless.  It's high paced and everything, just how I like it.  But today, after 2 practices, was our first Match (scrimage) I was paired with Brandon Davis on Number 2 doubles.  We never have played doubles so it took us awhile to get into things, we lost 6-0 - 6-1 but atleast we got one!  My serve is wicked fast I guess, but I can't get it in the service box good, my back hand sucks butt and my forehand sucks too so I have -much- to work on.  I have one sweet play, I almost served an ace, I think, but it hit the far corner of the service box and the kid just tapped it, and it barely went over the net, so I sprinted up to it lunged in the air, all sprawlled out and dove for it, hit it over, and won the point! I scrated myself up a little bit but hell it was sweet! woohoo.  We played a few games at school with each other for a bit, Tyler and Miller tried to help me but I think i'm a lost cause :(

     But anyways that concludes my day, now that I am physically/mentally tired and mainly physically ACHING I'm retiring for the night.  Oh but one last thing!!!

My name is Petey and I have GIGANTIC BALLS!!!!!

    - Heh that's for you Jesse- hang in there bud!

Okay today turned out really freaking bad.  I think I've found out why I dont' go out anymore because everytime I talk to a girl people say I "flirt" lets see flirting as defined in the Webster's NewWorld Dictionary is to touch lightly, to pay amorous attention to someone without serious intentions or emotional commitment; play at love to trifle or toy. Okay so if I'm talking to a girl because i haven't seen/talked to her in awhile makes me flirting with her? I mean why do you people say this, I do mean multiple people. IM ABSOLUTELY OBSESSED WITH JENNA! WHY WOULD I SCREW THAT UP. gosh damn it makes me feel soooooo shitty to hear that and it hurts but i'll get over it.  I dunno if i'm going out anymore other then with Jenna. I can't help it i have a lot of girlfriends and last time I checked a friend talks to their other friends and if making someone laugh is flirting then wow I must be bi-sexual cause i make guys laught too..

A very pissed off Collin

Wohoo another 2 hour delay, those are great it makes my day like that much better! Until stupid little things happen because of my personality. Well today was a rollercoaster of emotions heh.  Started out great then went into the depths of hell then started to rise and hit the climax when I found out that I was 4 outa 12 in my physics class and that bumped me up to a 4.0 gpa which make sme happy because I feel somewhat of a smart student.  still nothing to compared to Jenna... who makes me look like a 3rd grader lol. Just kiddin'! *with the face in mind*   I also heard one of the most funny things in the world by this girl today hah.  Interested in what's going to happen tonight but excited.  I kinda felt like crap tonight because this person messaged me on aim and i hate when random people message me and start to talk to me when i don't know their name, well here after i didn't respond to this person it was Nick Klowdo's little brother lol I felt horrible but we are cool now.

Kinda depressed with the Steelers, oh well they have next season.  Ward is the best wide reciever in the game period.. no one can change my mind. Heh well thats' all for toda

I love emotions/feelings/and communication when those combine they are the most powerful tool in the world. GREATER THEN DUCK TAPE!

today sucked. i am really starting to hate the fact of who i am. i'm tired of being this hardass,cocky, asswhole, jerk , and whatever else i am. i thought i was mature but i have come to the conclusion i am no where near it.  i let my ego and arrogance get in the way of everything and its killing me soo softly. i just want things to be happy all the time and i'm not doing it and i hate it.   i wish i were more of a bovine person then what i am. i am a firm believer in "everything happens for a reason" but i want to know why i'm like this? what's the reason for my actions.. i'm tired of pissin people off specially people who mean sooo damn much to me that i can't even explain.. gosh i'm stupid this is where i start to hate myself...

God help me please....

Well today was a good day, nothing great.  The semester just started I have health and a study hall. Yeah for the study hall.  All in all it was good, especially cause Jenna was here!!!!! YAAAAAH .  Snyder made up for all the days I wanted to kill myself, literally,coming out of physics class when she said we really made her happy because we "try" unlike the other classes.  So thanks Mrs. Snyder.  Almost wasn't a good day, but thank goodness Jenna and I talk because it DOES help and DOES Make me feel better when I tell her things that are on my mind.  After I came home I slept from for an hour and 22 minutes ate then went back to sleep from 5:40 to about 8:20. heh soo i like to sleep. I never have anything to do but homework and sleep.  Heh I also got my mom's half of her bannana split because she saved it for me heh gotta love her.  That's all today folks.  Peace.

J.M.